Sadness
I have out of body experiences.
I've had them for years,
ever since I was a tiny child,
but I wanted more.
I wanted to to push back the boundaries of my ethereal existence.
I wanted to converse with angellic beings,
to touch the smooth faces of divine doric architecture,
and after many years,
sublime concentration,
and mastery of my state,
I attained a divine orbit.
A supreme level.
I tasted the cold purity of neat spiritual oxygen
and I entered heaven itself.
It was rubbish.